Life... possible change of plans

HAPPY NEW YEAR to anyone that may be reading. Well i thought i should post my new years resolutions. These resolutions have caused a snowball effect on my future plans, goals aims everything! I dunno this may be a major change for me.
Ok well lets get to the resolutions first before i start babbling:

1. No dwelling in my problems or feeling emotional just finding solutions and getting things done.
2. To be more critical about my choices and people
3. To stay on target and be organised
4. Really step up in terms of knowledge regarding graphic design and education
5. Do what I want to do, and really be honest with myself regarding life
6. Excersize at least 3 times a week

In being CRITICAL of my choices, HONEST and finding SOLUTIONS it has come quite clear to me that my dream of bringing my designing skills to a next level and even making my own label will not flourish unless i am fully committed. There is no way i can go to uni for 5years to become a dentist and do all the other stuff as well. I have to decide between a) what looks good, what my parents would want, what i am expsected to do with my academic ability, what is almost a guarenteed job, what is safe or b) what i can see myself doing, something that actually intrests me, something directly related to my business ideas, something that i can constantly develop.
See if you havent guess a is dentist, and b is graphic designer which would involve me pursuing that instead of becoming a dentist.
Major contrast guys and it is such a scary choice but i think i will have to go with b... this is so scary after being such a traditonal no uni no science or maths person you are doomed and totaly being reformed these kind of choices are so daunting. Anyway on the bright side i still have a year and a bit to decide. Because regardless of anything i will complete my a levels in biology, chemistry, english and psychology.

MAKE UP make up BEAUTY reviews

Alright as read in my previous post's you know i love make up so i will try my best to post as much reviews as possible. I am open up to request of reviewing any products in mind because the chances are i have it or have used it in the past.
Some Tips For Applying Mascara

• Apply more than one coat for a voluminous look
  
• Dont be afraid to use different mascaras for your multiple coats, dont worry your lashes wont end up a heap of mess
  
• Apply a lengthning mascara for your first coat and then volume for a fake lash effect
• Time invested=longer fuller lashes, dont shy away from spending a good 5 minutes carefuly applying a layer of your mascara you will see the results.
• For lengthning mascara be more concise with the application and start from the base and work your way up, do not wiggle your brush too much when applying otherwise you might have thin long strands flying in all directions.
  
• Do not wait for your first coat to dry before applying the 2nd coat.

If there are any questions or comments please feel free to post

Review for Rimmel Max Volume Flash Mascara

Rimmel Max Volume Flash Mascara
Price- £5 - £6.50
My rating- 7/10
If you want thick lashes or even want to layer up your mascara for more volume this is the one. No clumps, or lashes grouping together. Its a cheap solution which is in my opinion one of the best in the rimmel range. It wont give you that much length but definately bigger longer and fuller lashes.

Please feel free to post any comments, questions or reviews related to this product.

Poem...pretty sad it happens everyday :(

Mummy...

She was my lungs yet she left me gasping for air
My garments but i was left exposed and cold
My food but my stomach was always growling
My happiness yet everyday was grey
She was nothing she was meant to be
Nothing like a mother
More like a stranger, who i looked just like..
Oh the irony, I saw it everyday in the mirror

I always asked why? Why didn't she want me
Why is it only daddy filling in that empty space
It doesn't make sense, didn't she learn any manners
Abused and disrespected, rejected like a virus
Is it my fault you brought me into this world?

When i was six years old you told me love conquers all
You asked me if i understood; I nodded my head eagerly
Hoping that this story had a happy ending
It didn't... mummy why did you leave me in suspence, out in the cold?

If only i knew that a few months down the line
You would drop me at daddys and I would never see you again
I would have been like, mummy what is true love?
Because you chose your lover over me
Dumped me like old news
I guess daughters just aren't in fashion
Or is it just you?

My life.. education

Well i am meant to be revising, and instead i am typing this post. Why? Because its killing me, reading over and over again, constantly asking myself will i remember this... a few years ago i thought if i didnt do all the sciences and maths my life will be a shattered, piece of crap, a sad excuse for living, and i would have no money. Ridiculous eh, now i just can't stand the thought of all of these exams, and just picking up my biology or psychology book is like walkking into my death bed. Lol, i wonder will i do great in my A levels and become a dentist, or will i flop.. even though i would rather go and work in a magazine or do make up or something, i feel some sort of pride about hopefully becoming a graduate in a science related subject.
You wana know what my inspiration is for trying my hardest in my education.. that one day i can be looked up to and respected and be a positive role model for youth with my extensive knowledge and so that i can have a good salary and go shopping every week and buy me some indian hair weave.
Big contrast i know...
so what are the questions? Will i finnish revising for my exams or just turn mad?
What should i post next.. hmm maybe i might post a poem.

Stephanie's Intrests

• I love reading i think im addicted, i would love to write a book one day.
• I love fashion and make up, i think im addicted to that too,if i dont make it as a dentist i think il be a make up artist or maybe a cosmetic scientist.
  
• I am an up and coming graphic designer, i only discovered my creative talent about a year ago *shhh* i was only trying to make my cv look good my signing up to random what i use to call "Stupid creative crap" and then discovered my love and talent.. I was so ignorant.
• I like science but hate maths
• Studying kills me everyday i wish i didn't care and could just drop out of college..
  
• I am currently contemplating if i should spend my money on asos or amazon. Hmm books or shoes, books or a dress, someone help me out here!
• It kills me that ever since taking up english lit i cant even read for leisure :(
  
• I don't think anyone can define me, im part nerdy,im part indulged in fashion and my hair, part feminist, part scientist... the list goes on.
  
• My worse crime(not according to the society btw)... don't tell anyone but i can't spell,maybe that part of my brain has blown a fuse or something.
  
• Im left handed
  

Who is Stephanie?

Well, fingers crossed, give it a few months a year perhaps, veiwers would have to go back by heaps of pages just to read about the person behind this blog. A bit about myself... actually no just things you should know before you read my blog
My name is Stephanie.. which im pretty sure you have guessed by now
I have been described as many things before, funny, weird, mean, nice, nerdy, the list goes on
Trust, you will see aspects of all of these things in my blog
I would think that you can't place a label on me, my interests are quite diverse for one person. Wondering what they are ay, lets move on then..